I'm finally entering my 20's. No longer a teen, just an adult, trying to adjust to my surrounding. This year's birthday celebration was special, I got to celebrate it with my sister. Well, I did celebrate it with her last year but this time we went out to celebrate instead.

So much have changed this past year (2015). I made new friends, left my hometown to study in Penang, gained some and lost some. But that's the process in life, I supposed. It's a vicious cycle.


Friends
Despite my awkwardness and introvert personality, I still managed to make some friends in college. They not only have similar interests with me, no mater what we talk about we still manage to get a laugh from it. I guess that's what friends are for, laughing together at the most ridiculous things. I still keep in contact with my friends back in hometown, although not regularly. However, we still know that we're there for each other no matter what happens. Just when I'm feeling down and sad, they would always contact me to cheer me up and just be there to listen to my problems. There are also some downs to this. I noticed how mean I can get when I'm with someone I don't like, which I know I really bad for somewhere in my conscience. Being 20, I shall learn how to be more careful with my thoughts and actions when being around people.

Family
I rarely get to spend time with my family, with my sister being busy with her work and to me for rarely getting any long term breaks from college. Whenever there's a break in between my semester, I always make time to travel back to my hometown to spend time with my family. This year, I am determined to spend more time with them with regular and long visits to home.

Academic
Well, so far I'm still okay academic wise, except for my third semester which totally went so bad that I want to bury myself in my blanket and lock myself in my room. But oh well, like I've always said, don't let your results (academic) determine who you are and who you're going to be. Results can never replace experience and vocational activities. For this year, I want to spend less time worrying about my results, but still do good in them.

Adventures
I'm proud of myself for making effort to head out and socialize with friends and family which is a thing I rarely do. From cafe hopping for lunch to having night adventures around Penang. However, I sometimes still reject invitations from friends to hang out or watch movies cause I still need my alone time (doing house chores, surfing the internet, binge watching TV shows, or simply just lie on bed). This year, I want to spend more time having fun adventures and enjoying the moments more.

Future
In the future, I want to be able to love myself more and not beat myself up for small matters/issues. I want to be able to make my friends happy and not annoy them with my awkwardness. I want to be more honest with myself. I want to be able to express myself more. I want to make the most of this year while being 20.

Happy 20th Birthday, self. Love yourself more and live the adventure.