Finally the end of third semester of college. I was seriously so overjoyed by this, since I won't have to face assignments, face annoying group members and face messy desktop anymore. Cleared all my college assignment bookmarks and also saved files on desktop. Now I just have to face my finals paper. Which I guess is kind of easier this time round since I only have to sit for 4 papers. 

Calvin and Hobbes to remind us all.

Taking some time off from all the horrendous assignment loads to talk about how we should be grateful for what we have at the moment. These past few months have been tiring and stressful and all I did was complain about how I wish I wasn't here anymore. However, yesterday, I learned that one of my senior from college, acquaintance from high school was met with an accident that has left her hospitalized and her parents were rushed to ICU.  And last month, my uncle from mother's side passed away from a car accident as well.

Rather than complaining about how my life is't how it is supposed to be, I should actually be grateful for what I have. I'm still alive and healthy, I can still walk, talk and see. That's all I've got to say for now. Peace out, enjoy life and live the adventure.

It seems like every thing I'm doing now isn't producing anything good. It's like being stuck in a maze and walking in an endless circle.It's not that I'm not trying my best, but.. it just happens. The worst part is, I have no one to talk to about since the people that I can actually talk to is either interning or working at the moment. All I can do is keeping it bottled up inside and hope for it to go away after some time.

Basically, any thing I touch or say is bringing disaster to myself and slowly killing me inside. What's wrong with me? Even on social media, I can't express my thoughts freely without being hated or talked about by anyone. I just need some alone time with myself. Not to cry, but to repent on what I did. In my head, it is mainly my fault. So yeahh..

Whenever we go for a movie or just simply watching a show on the TV, the only people we will remember are the casts and sometimes the director. How about the people behind the scenes? What about the Director of Photography? The scriptwriters? The editors? There are many more, however, they're just being treated as the behind-the-scenes people and nothing more. Same goes for novels, book etc. All people will remember are the authors but not the editor. Without them, will we even have any worthwhile entertainment?

Although I'm not exactly involved in the entertainment business yet, the same thing goes for college situations. My situation might not be as severe as other people around me, but I feel it. The pressure, the loneliness and the feeling of not being acknowledged. To be honest, even if I tried to fight it, it doesn't really work out well. It's like being in a caste but this time in college. You can never change your status. Once an underdog, forever an underdog. Depressing? Yes. But sometimes it will work out well for you.

For instance, I'm always the one reminding people about assignment deadlines, sending them assignment guidelines (only for people who attended the class but unable to take down all the notes) etc. For my course, I have to take a subject that requires us to direct, create and produce a content. Somehow, the position of the director went to me although I don't feel like holding onto the position. Despite all the efforts I put in, some people don't seem to appreciate my efforts. Moreover, they tend to change my efforts into theirs to outshine themselves in front of the lecturer. Sigh. Nothing I can do here. Maybe we should all just learn our mistakes and don't overdo ourselves.

To everyone out there who are underdogs, please know that you're important. Please know that you matter. Please know that no matter what happens, being an underdog isn't the end of the world and maybe one day, maybe, you can change your status for the better. We can always be like Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Mark Zuckerberg, Mahatma Gandhi etc. All these leaders were once a nobody but they became a somebody.

Peace out, enjoy life and live the adventure.

Time passes by so fast when you're so busy getting this semester over with. It has been a total disastrous roller coaster ride for this third semester. Learned about group assignments the hard way this time. Assignment deadlines are every week and I don't even have time for food, sleep or chores. All my schedules are messed up. Just when I thought I'm done with the assignment, another one pops up. I guess that's how college life really is. It's not all about drama, parties and late night road trips. More like, late night assignment rush, sleep deprivation and panic attacks. Well, just a few more semesters to go? I bet the working life will be even more stressful. Heh.

Throughout the first year of college, I've learned so much. More than what I intended to, but I'm still grateful for it. I'm more interested in photography. I've learned how to lead people although I'm still lacking in this aspect. I've learned that I should trust and lean on people some times. I get too stressful when I handle everything all on my own.

Here's to a greater month, though I expect a lot of hair pulling moments. I shall be grateful for everything for now and learn from my mistakes.

And, Penang has been great to me this past year. From the scenery to the food and friends. Every angle, every corner is worthy of aesthetic photos. Shall discover more of Penang together with my friends and family.

p/s: I know this post is all over the place for the moment, I'm just too disorientated from all the assignment loads and loss of sleep.

Apartment view facing Butterworth right after the rain.

The Daily Dose Cafe Wine Bar interior.

Air cond ventilated seating area.

The view right next to the counter.

Street art just after a right turn in Love Lane.

Scenic beach view at Tanjung Tokong.

Lunch at Wheeler's Coffee at Love Lane.

View from my seat.

Bicycle themed decor.

Just some cute expression cups!